Relle, you sound so much like me. I am also so thankful that I found this site as I was convinced no pain, no gain was the way to go. I have made so much more progress in 5 weeks since I have decided not to let PT push me around. (fired the first one) Nights are tough for me too, I tend to wake up and can't sleep so I will put one airpod in and listen to an audible book. I bookmark when I start and the next day the times are 1:17, 3:06,4:45, 6:10 and so on documentation that I am sleeping in spurts. I had a problem tolerating pain meds and a sadistic (though technically good) surgeon who didn't prescribe anything as an alternative to the narcotics that were making me sick but tylenol and advil.
Some days just suck. My husband and youngest son are here with me and have done everything possible to help but I can be so irritable at times. All in all, this site is a godsend. I feel like I am not losing my mind as others have similar experiences. Onward we go!