@Suz I've read through your posts again. You are such a kind, sweet and insightful woman! I really enjoy reading your posts 'cause your spirit leaps off the pages and helps me (so many others, too for sure).
Well, sounds like you are right where you should be. You are going through a similar isolation period as I am. I've decided to (once again this year) take the "Christmas pressure" off my shoulders and just let it be...trying to live in the "true meaning" of it all.
It's hard and I feel guilty, isolated, Scrooge-like. Of course, it started with a vengeance last weekend with a request from my husband, "Hey...why don't we decorate a bit...a few lights here, garland there, blah, blah." Yeah...right...why don't "WE" decorate means let "TONI-LEE" decorate and I'll critique & criticize. No thanks.
I nearly lost it. No, no and heck no.
It's "easy" for me (I suppose) to pass 'cause we have no children, no grandchildren. We have zero family nearby...it's not like we're disappointing others with my bah-humbug mood...but I'm just not feeling it this year.
Frankly, I am just not feeling well enough to decorate, or do much. My intention is to give a little something to the few who have REALLY factored into my life this year. Now are you ready for this:
~my dear neighbor/friend Barbara, who has been so helpful
~my neighbor Barbara's 3 dogs (always do gifts from my dog, Ernie to the neighbor's dogs)
~my PT person/friend, who is also our realtor (it's a very small town-lol)
~a dear friend of mine, who lives in Australia
~my mail gal (I love her and I do 99.999999% shopping online)
~my UPS guy (see above...yes I am intimately acquainted with my mail person, UPS, FedEx guys)
~husband (it's Christmas for both of us 24/7/365 in the gift giving/receiving department)
~maybe a few other folks
And before I forget, I just posted about my last OS visit...not good. Your ROM history gave me GREAT hope! Thank you for posting that! I definitely needed to read that today!
Hang in there. You are doing great. Be easy on yourself. I'm always saying, "Let Christmas be 365 days a year...not just one...kindness, charity, giving, respectfulness, love, prayer, gratitude, compassion...let it be 24/7/365...gift giving/receiving 365 would be nice, too
