WORST. MORNING. EVER.
PT came in earlier to help me get up and walk. The pain was once again way beyond unbearable. I fought and fought, but all I could get my stupid body to do was stand for a few seconds before having to sit. It hit the "just shoot me now" stage as soon as I started to move towards the side of the bed to stand. I had to go very slowly and stop a lot. The PT said he was impressed, as most people in that amount of pain would not have tried that hard.
Meantime, it finally broke me and I started blubbering like a baby, which is what I feel like from not being able to walk even one single step so far. I've had nurses, several doctors, and PT working together and all of them have been through my room today since this happened. Even with IV Ibuprofin, OTC Tylenol, a pain pump which has been raised to 6 now, and a separate nerve block; the one area that has the worst excruciating pain is not covered. The anesthesiologist said he could block the area but the side effect would be pretty bad as I would have to be in a brace due to foot drop; no walking would be allowed and I'd still have to be here. Naturally we both vetoed that idea.
So, I have to be here until the pain is bearable. The PT said if it would drop to a 6 or 7, the way I fought today, I'd be able to walk. BTW, this PT is wonderful. Those of you who know me know I don't do PT, but this guy is amazing. He's also checking out this site, so he's a keeper!
I'm still really tearful, and I NEVER cry. I really, really, really wanted to go home today but have been told by PT, the hospitalist and so on, that it's not happening until I can walk. Maybe tomorrow, maybe longer. The PT did get a look from me when he told me he was on until Saturday! I had better not need to be here that long! I'm no longer connected to any tubes, wires or monitors. The foley came out this am, finally, and all I have is the IV port which isn't connected, just used when needed.
What's even worse is the no visitors policy. Otherwise my daughter and granddaughter could come cheer me up, my husband could spend hours playing games, visiting and so on since he's retired, and I wouldn't have to do this alone. I can't imagine how those in long term care are doing it when I've only been alone 5 days and am losing it.
I am NEVER, EVER, HAVING ANOTHER SURGERY ON THIS LEG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!