Well, well, well--so much good advice---but there were some good tongue lashings in there too!!! Actually I am laughing my head off at "little lassie" and "wearing the big girl panties"!!! Anything but that---I have just spent quite a bit of money getting panties that are lower than the new pants---please don't send me back to (as my daughter said, the grannie panties!!!)
As most of you can see, I prefer to deal with life directly and head on---and I am pretty good at taking it when the same technique is directed my way too! Since I live in Montana, I am prepared to be a Big Buckaroo---anything but the big girl panties!!!
Jo, I really do understand how we all only have so much energy--but, sometimes exercise--like my upper body exercise gives me More energy--not less. Remember, before this surgery, I worked out at least two hours every day---more before ski season. So, my body needs a certain amount of moving and stretching just to work properly.
I have to admit that since I am such a jock, I don't have the mental resources that some of you have---I simply do not know what to do with myself all day. I refuse to sit in bed another minute. I sit in a chair, then I'm bored and I walk around, then I read for an hour, then I walk around, then I go somewhere for an erran, then I walk around some more--then into the studio for an hour or two, then walk around, then sit for a while, etc, etc. I am so incredibly bored!!! I hate tv and am tired of reading. I am used to more interaction with other people and I miss having friends to talk to and laugh with. But, when I go to a quilt meeting, I become so tired that I am not good company.
Usually I am the happy go lucky one---this surgery has changed my personality---I can see that the lack of sleep and the isolation from other humans is what does it. My husband is depressed and usually it does not bother me because I have so many other friends---spending day in and day out with a depressed person is really wearing me out.
Bob's daughter is coming for a visit and I have spent this week doing laundry and preparing the guest room for them. It is impossible for me to ask others for help, and I have had to accept the fact that Mary will have to visit a less than clean house. The worst part is the messiness that seems to accompany illness---the piles of books everywhere, the pile of magazines and mail that I just got rid of today, I also got rid of the raised toilet seat and the shower chair---I could not stand to look at them and their mess for one more minute. But, I still have to put away all the bottles of Aleve, Aspirin, vitamins, glucosomine, etc, etc that are cluttering the bathroom. Ugh
Through this all is my frustration that I am so impaired at this time. I did get out the compression stockings I have and started wearing them around the house, which helps with the swelling when I am standing. I have to work in my studio, I just can't stand to live when I don't---but, now, I am only working on smaller projects. I wrote to four galleries and told them that due to family illness, I will be late. They will be skeptical, but there is less pressure.
The overriding pain is the biggest problem. When I take Percoset on a regular basis, my brain becomes mush and I feel like crying all the time. When I try to space it out during the day, my brain is better, but the pain builds up all day. Now, tonight, it is impossible to sleep because of the pain in my leg. I am trying to take tramadol and tylenol during the day, and it almost gets me past the pain---but the night is a different story. It is impossible to find a comfortable position to lie down, so I find myself in a chair with myleg propped up in another chair. i really do think this is a good time to go down to my studio, since sleep is impossible anyway. Just sitting here is driving my crazy. The sleep thing makes sense to me---since I don't do anything physical, my body requires less sleep.
And all of you are right--it is useless to think that I wish I had not done this surgery---because I did do it. Thinking of how much I hate this knee is not getting me anywhere.
Crystal is does scare me that you skied last winter--but only went 8 times. I will have to ski about 100 days---and I will ski them knee swelling or no knee swelling. Since my doc lied about everything else, I assume he lied about skiing too. Yesterday I met a woman in pt whose doc told her she could ski after 3 months. Even i thought that was crazy.
I have always healed so quickly---this surgery has brought me to my knees!!! My right knee has an injury at work---my leg caught on a piece of equipment and was twisted. I lost almost all of my meniscus and my knee went from full joint space in March to bone on bone in July. Traumatic arthritis. Until this surgery, it hurt most of the time, just ached. But, since the surgery, it has not hurt at all. And there is NO Way THAT I would have surgery on it until at least five years has passed---I am set on that, I can ignore the pain because, it is not like I won't have pain after the surgery anyway. I won't do the knee until I am at least 70. I don't care.