@Fit4Family, so sorry to hear that your device is loose. I've been catching up on your thread and OMG, what a delicate, maddening recovery you've been through. I know this won't make you feel any better and I hope you don't find my words to be Pollyanish, but reading through your thread I saw someone who really performed an impossible balancing act with enormous grace and sanity.
You felt the pain ... sensed something could be wrong ... but you reminded yourself that recoveries can be slower than we want ... You checked in with your OS ... multiple times ... felt some reassurance ... but called the OS again later when things didn't quite feel right. You were patient ... and yet you also spoke up and expressed concern ... Reading about your journey brought me back to my journey ... particularly in months three through six ... when I had made a lot of progress ... but still felt the hip wasn't quite where I wanted it to be ... I can remember how maddening those months were ... and your challenge was far worse, far more difficult than mine. I remember the swings: One day,
I'm just having a slower recovery than usual, I just need to hang in there. Next Day,
something is really wrong. And then the ultimate mind-twister:
but if something is wrong, why isn't my surgeon identifying the problem? Maybe I have one of those problem surgeries that no one has an answer for.
I guess I'm saying ... Sounds like you did everything you could to attend to your recovery. I'm really sorry you had to put in such enormous emotional work to sense that the hip isn't right without the OS backing you up. In my view, it's fine to run the scenario back ... and to have some unhappiness with your OS's delay in diagnosing a problem. I'm of the school that believes some targeted, specific anger can allow energy to move ... and can be a way of taking care of ourselves ... and to attend to our feelings ... Anger does not equal violence in my view. A close friend of mine has this phrase along the lines of ... we have to feel the feeling in order to let the energy move. But I am talking to someone who is a master at emotional management, it seems to me.
I look forward to your report on the revision specialist. There's a chance you'll get a view on your OS's slow diagnosis of the problem ... from the revision specialist. One of our members
@prairienut underwent a revision and the revision guy said it was very clear from the x-Rays that the original device wasn't fitting right. And yet the original surgeon never saw the problem.
So sorry you've had to go through this maddening process.