I understand your feeling defeated, you have really been through the wringer.
Take another look at this in the morning and plan a course of action.
Why don't you change your avatar to something less angry, to something the looks more determined, and positive.
Just a suggestion.
Goodness i can try to change avatar . Technology challenged . Today it would be tears , i never cried prior tkr now that is all, i do . I feel very useless no job , gained weight , still in pain , no ortho will see me .
Cagney is my Golden Retriever. Bo was our daughters dog she moved out he stayed . They are very good companions . I have red Golden named Bella and a black lab named Jethro never able to get them all in one pic.