mdakota
senior
girton girl. i completley understanding wanting to have your kids first, and i totally understand feeling like your not the parent you can be. i feel that way often, i know what i was like when the other two was young. its not stupid pain is a limitaion just like range of motion. at a certain point you just cant go past. and eventhough it may not be all the time i didnt realize how much i stopped till i was at a complete stand still. here's the flip side. after two great pregnancies, i ended up comming out of work at 4 months and in a wheel chair for the last 5 with dd #3. then there is the after that i'm going thru now. cant have replacement until 4-5 months after because hormones have to stabalize relaxin can cause the joint placement to be off. and i had to stop breastfeeding. (sorry gentleman). the prolactin has an effect too. so now i'm here over a year later and praying every day just to get to 6/08/2009. much love to you and i just wanted you to know that waiting as brave and unselfish as it is especially when your thinking of your baby first might actually have repercussions later. oh and my mom had already had a total when she had my brother.