Janet -
I understand you are very frustrated and in a lot of pain. I certainly understand your anxiety and frustration are normal, but I also think that some of the things you are trying to describe have not been discussed yet on this board. I am glad your PT and your doctor are very involved in your recovery because it sounds like you need more expert help than some of us are capable of giving right now.
Please continue to share with us all you are going thru, but you said you had some good days in there, please share those too so you can acknowlege that they ARE happening also. The good days are the ones that will see us thru to the end.
I am five weeks PO and feel like I'm really on the mend. I was feeling like I was out of the woods with the "pity party" days because it had been over a week since I had been weepy and moping... All of a sudden today, I had a real down day, aching (because I really worked my knee yesterday) and weepy!
We are having a dozen people over tomorrow to celebrate the Fourth of July and my husband was out mowing the lawn and getting our place ready and I had physical therapy today and came home after shopping and just cried I was in so much pain.
Luckily, when we have gatherings here on the lake, everyone brings a dish to pass and their own beverages. All I want to do tomorrow is change the kitty litter and clean the bathroom and I should be OK. My husband would do it in a minute, but I want so badly to do my share. Saturday, we have about 60 people over (on my side of the family party). Again, everyone brings everything!! We ordered sloppy joes from my brother-in-laws deli for everyone, so I really don't have anything to do. I know I will feel better tomorrow, but today, I really had a pity party and had my tears!
I'm so glad to hear that tears are all part of the recovery process. Because if i didn't have this board, I would wonder if I was normal at all!
You do have some obstacles to clear, but I think your doctor is the one who is going to have to get you to the next level. Please keep us posted when you find out his plan of action!
Laurie
You're in my prayers!