Hello Sunny
Please try not to project, but take it day by day. I suffered a lot of anxiety pre-op also. I felt constantly bombarded with the “what if’s” to the point of tears also. I don’t know if you’re a person of faith, but I had to draw on my faith for consolation, day after day, sometimes minute by minute the closer I got to surgery. I was frightened also. I‘d pray that if surgery was meant to be I would keep moving forward (even though I wanted to run away) and only stop if there was a roadblock so obvious it stopped me. I basically walked in faith, because it’s all I could do. One day at a time.
You don’t have to worry about being worse off post op right now, nor think about selling your home, abandoning future travel, missing out on gardening or anything else you love or are planning. IF that was to happen and that’s a BIG “IF“, you’d deal with it when the time comes. Stay busy now with planning your recovery nest and occupying your mind in an effort to stifle those thoughts. Squeeze them out!
Try to think in a positive light on how THR will make a significant difference in your life for the better because those odds are in your favor. You’ll be steadier on your feet, stronger, living life again without pain. You’ll feel gratitude for a second chance. It’s life changing, truly. You gain a new appreciation for so many little things you realize you took for granted until you were limited as your natural hip deteriorated.
I'm hardly walking right now and been in pain for over a year.
I felt weary like this toward the end. In pain, feeling drained. I went to bed early every night the last week or two, just to get off my feet. The heating pad helped. I don’t know that it relieved pain as much as it was a comfort. I’d lay in bed at night and watch tv with it on.
I hope the time moves fast for you. Next Sunday will be here before you know it and you’ll be home on the road to recovery! I look forward to following your journey to hippy happy pain free!
Prayers for your comfort and peace of mind.
I hope today is a good one.