Back to wondering why I ever did this. It has been over 20 weeks since my surgery and this past week has been tough. Ice has been the only thing that really helps. I read about other people’s recovery and it is hard not to compare. I feel like I am just not getting better. My knee hurts and I keep thinking it is never going to get better. I think maybe I should do more or maybe less. Realistically I know in my head healing takes time and I need to be patient. However, I feel like this is never going to get better and I should have never had the surgery. Stress has not helped my mood. My husband is a gov worker, working 50-60 hours a week and we have no idea when he is going to get paid. Trying to figure out how to manage our finances has not been fun. I know too this is all temporary but that doesn’t help right now. I am just tired of pain. Thanks for listening.