I feel and understand your pain. One night I got up to go to the bathroom and my left leg gave out, and I fell to the ground and had a very difficult time getting up. It is scary to see the rapid decline in one's own body. We all have our pity pot days. Here in Michigan, it was in the 20's, very windy, snow squalls, and my body was screaming in pain all day long. May 23rd cannot come soon enough. Hang in there, and know that you are not ALONE!